Reading Reaction 3 "The War Within"

March 2005 cops everywhere, they were bombarding me, my house, and my children. What did they want? I knew just didn't want to believe. They were asking questions, and throwing out accusations. Their mouths were moving but nothing was coming out, at least I was not listening anymore. I had a realization, I was in big trouble. That was the night I was saying goodbye to many important things in my life. I was saying bye to my house, my friends, my dreams and my children; as a result, of my drug addiction. Jacob leaving with Child Protective Services with a look of relief on his face says, "now you will get the help you need mom!" Was he right? Would everything be o.k.? This was my moment of clarity. I knew giving up drugs; in fact, would be the main factor in my children returning home to me. It was going to be a struggle; nevertheless, it had to be done. Saying goodbye is hard to do; on the other hand, saying "hello" is so rewarding.